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01:53am 25/11/2005
mood: distressed
So much for a relaxing Thanksgiving... It was the most hectic day I've had back home in a LONG time. I might update you more on it later, but just know that it made me very eager to go back to the stillness of my dorm at HLG. It was that lovely terrible! =( I need to get away...
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A New-ish Survey -- (Last Entry Before Thanksgiving!)   
09:18pm 23/11/2005
mood: Deprived of Rest.
[.It's All About Me.]
~Hi, my name is...
01. Name: Ashley
02. Age: 7,075 days old (approximation!)
03. Birthday: 7.8.86 (Day of Birth)
04. Chinese Zodiac: The Tiger - rawr!
05. Astrological Zodiac: Cancer the Crab (go figure!)
06. Home Town: Nearby StL
07. Eye Color: Blue or Green. I don't know an exact.
08. Hair Color: I'm naturally blonde, but my current hair color is a dark shade of brown.
09. Height: 5'4"
10. Weight: In the 120s, last time I checked
11. How many toes and fingers do you have: Four fingers per hand; One thumb per hand; Five toes per foot (bet you thought I was gonna say "hand")...

[.In Today's World.]
~Today feels so...
11. Current Location: "The Great Room", as termed by my dearest mother
12. Current Mood: Lethargic
13. Current Annoyance: Having a "bedtime" again (one of the cons for returning home)...
14. Current Hatred: Empty promises.
15. Current Love: Jesus!
16. Current Weather: A bit on the cool and calm side (what a starry night sky, though)!
17. Current Time: 21:30
18. Current Date: This is the twenty-third day of the eleventh month, two-thousand five A.D.
19. Current Clothing: From head to toe -- silver clip in my hair to hold it out of my eyes; a skin-colored spaghetti strap shirt with an Annie T-shirt over it, which is in turn over-shadowed by my Upwards Basketball red-collared shirt; my baggy blue jeans that I've had since 9th grade (with holes in them from all the wear and tear); and my pink socks! Hoorah for not matching!!!
20. Current Need: A longer Thanksgiving Break, no doubt

[.That Was So Yesterday.]
~Deja vu?
21. Last person you saw: Mom
22. Last person you were mad at: My big brother Ryan
23. Last thing you touched: This keyboard
24. Last thing you ate: Imo's Pepperoni Pizza
25. Last person you talked to on the phone: Krista (my very own Kritta!)
26. Last person you instant messaged: Prince William
27. Last thing you purchased: Pizza from Imo's
28. Last book you read: The NASB version of the Holy Bible
29. Last game you played: Mexican Train
30. Last person you missed: Benjamin (Benash) - is it possible to miss someone when they're right in front of you? If so, then he is the one.

[.The Future Is Too Close.]
~It's so bright...
31. Where will you be living?: England
32. With who? (if anyone): My cats and me!
33. What will be your profession?: Hopefully, I'll be doing long-term mission work &/or teaching.
34. Married?: Perhaps.
35. Your future car: My future car is a forest green Ford Focus (2000). I know that I will have it today, tomorrow, and the days to come (God-willing), so it is my future vehicle.
36. Your dream house: Anywhere in the country (in England, of course)!
37. Kids?: Not without a husband, silly d00d!
38. Pets?: My cats and Will!

[.Playing Favorites.]
~I simply love those...
39. Favorite Color: White & Cerulean
40. Favorite Animal: Polar Bears
41. Favorite Artist/Band: Anberlin
42. Favorite Genre of Music: Anything that's not distateful to the extreme...
43. Favorite Month: The Month of December
44. Favorite Weather: Either in the nighttime with pouring rain and a lightning show OR fluffy snowflakes on a freezing December evening while walking through town and looking at the Christmas lights, sipping my hot chocolate w/ marshmallows!
45. Favorite Sport: Softball or Volleyball
46. Favorite Food: Watermelon, Cheesecake, and Cheese!
47. Favorite Stores: Borders
48. Favorite Article of Clothing: My great, great grandmother's engagement ring (which I haven't been wearing lately, by the way...)
49. Favorite Song: Either "Change the World (We Are the Lost Ones)" or "Glass to the Arson", both which are by Anberlin!
50. Favorite Place to Be: Satisfied.

[.What Love Life?.]
~Love is a battlefield...
51. Single, taken, married?: Single.
52. Are you in love?: I love, yes. I'm in love with the Lord, but as far as the opposite sex goes, I try to stay away from that game.
53. If so, with who?: Yahweh.
54. Do they love you back?: Yep!
55. How long have you been with them?: For quite a while now...

[.Describe Your Ideal Lover.] - The term "lover" makes me a tad bit weirded out!
56. Eye Color?: As long as it's his natural eye color, I don't care.
57. Hair Color?: I don't have a preference.
58. Personality?: Easy-Going, the ideal guy for me has to be comfortable with himself and others & know how to have fun. Funny, he has to be able to make me laugh (because we all know what amazing things laughter does for the soul)! Sincere, the type of guy that won't make far-fetched promises and speak without thinking... NO, this guy cares enough about his integrity to put time & effort into every promise he makes to me. I'll never have reason to doubt him because I'll know he's already tested his words for himself before laying them on the line before me. Know real love, the love that is from God (this is the only way I know his "love" for me will remain because it's not a feeling but a choice)!
59. Appearence?: I generally fall for the guys that are a great deal taller than I am and fairly lanky. However, it's nice to be able to fit comfortable into his arms and feel secure.
60. Other: He HAS to love the Lord and be willing to sacrifice all else (even me) for Him, if called to do just that. However, this doesn't mean he'll use God as a safety-crutch, but rather that he's in tune with God & knows His Master's voice among all the others shouting out his name.

[.The Bad Things.]
~The bad side of me...
61. My last argument was about: Was with my older brother regarding the fact that he messed up the living room ("Great Room") after I cleaned it. Silly, yes, but he doesn't even care!
62. I'm guilty of: Being a human.
63. I use profanity when: Someone makes me angry. I don't speak the profanity outloud most of the time, but thinking it isn't necessarily any better...
64. I'm still mad at: A certain someone who broke every last promise he made to me & didn't mean the three most profoundly over-used words that any man can say to a woman. I'm over it, but the pain still lies. And, unfortunately, I will continue to hold it on the surface for future references. I don't like to play games when it comes to that.
65. My worst trait is: I tend to be a bit sarcastic when I shouldn't be, and I am overly jittery all of the time.
66. I lied to: Many people, I'm sure. However, it still sucks to lie and be lied to, so I try to not make a habit out of this (although, when I was young, I was pretty okay with being a compulsive liar).
67. I still haven't: Been to England! Sad story!!!
68. I hate: Satan. I used to feel sorry for the guy, but not any more (flippin' moron)!
69. I want to harm: Satan. I wanna kick him in the face.
70. I failed at: Being a "perfect student" my freshman year of college.

[.The Good Things.]
~Feel good about yourself...
71. My best trait is: I tend to fall flat on my face quite often, but I always end up at the feet of God when it's all said and done.
72. People like me because: I remind them how lucky they are to be sane?
73. I like to: Constantly be on the move!
74. I'm happiest when: I'm talking to someone about the Lord (especially someone who is as excited about Him as me)!
75. I want to: Move to England now...
76. I succeed at: Being human.
77. The last time I helped someone was: Today - I cleaned the house for Thanksgiving tomorrow.
78. I wish for: The ability to move to England forever!
79. I laugh when: Funny things happen? Or simply when I'm thinking things in my head that are silly.
80. Today, I will: Finish this survey and head off to bed so that I may wake up at 2 A.M. tomorrow at start cooking for the meal.

[.Word Association.]
~What word comes to mind when I say...
81. Banana: "The Banana Song" - We sing it in our youth group at church!
82. Angelic: Angel Food Cake (Man, I'm so Baptist)!
83. Happy: "Don't Worry, Be Happy!" and Car Commercials
84. Emo: Sister Jessi
85. Blanket: Hot Chocolate
86. Blue: Bluegrass Music
87. Deity: Diet
89. War: World War I and/or II
90. Melon: Watermelon!
91. Hate: Enemy. Those two kinda go hand-in-hand, I think... Natural instinct.
92. Run: Forest Gump.
93. December: SNOW and Christmas Lights!
94. Best Friend: Jesus & Meghan.
95. Worst Enemy: Satan.
96. Toothpaste: Toothbrush.
97. Television: Disney Channel.
98. Competition: Tournament.
99. Love: God; Husband/Wife.
100. Serendipity: How the last part of that word is "pity."

~That was lame...
101. What time is it?: Eleven minutes past the hour (10:11 P.M.)!
102. Was this survey lame?: Never! -shifty eyes-
103. Where did you find this survey?: Survey Palace on LJ
104. Will you force other people to take this?: Like I care. I just did it for kicks and grins.
105. How do you feel after filling out 105 survey questions?: I feel rambunctious! -jumps around like a crazy person-
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Thanksgiving Eve   
05:39pm 23/11/2005
mood: Thankful for Cleanliness!
Wow! Two entries in a row. I'm just on the ball here lately...

Anyway, as you can tell, I've revamped my Lj yet again. This one has the same feel to it that one of my old ones did. I also updated my profile for those of you whom are reading this and actually care.

Today has been... well, exhausting. I woke up at 10 A.M., after roughly 5 hours of sleep, and began immediately on cleaning the house for Thanksgiving tomorrow. Little did I know that I was going to be alone for the first 6 hours (mom had work and Tammy had to wait for the girls to get off of school). I got a lot more accomplished than I thought I would at the beginning, considering that I had no clue where to start. Enough of that for now. We don't really need to relive all that.

I talked to this boy from my college a bit last night. He's one of those types that really irks me. He insists that he cares about getting to know me and goes through millions of questions regarding me on the net, but whenever I see him around our college campus, it's like I don't exist. He really makes me sick, and last night while I was talking to him, I decided to be a sarcastic brat. I don't think he caught on, though. I guess I'm either becoming too soft, or he's just really self-absorbed. Plah!

It seems I can't escape these people no matter how far I go, I suppose. At least I have the shelter of my home for another 4 days or so. Man, I love being home (regardless of the cleaning and lack of free-time)!

Anyway, talk to y'all later (probably when the Thanksgiving rush dies down tomorrow afternoon). Peace out, and for all of you celebrating, don't eat too much. Life will go on if you have left-overs, y'know?

I'm out.

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Jessi, Me, and Meghan at a Mark Twain Memorial
(Photo by Bob; taken last weekend)
You Should Be Sleeping   
04:20am 23/11/2005
mood: In Need of Shut-Eye
Okay, so I'm back at this again. To my misfortune, I deleted my beautiful, personalized Xanga, but I know it was for good cause.

Anyway, I came back home a bit over 13 hours ago. It feels so great to be back in good ol' StL! College life gets kinda wearisome at times.

Visiting with the parentals couldn't be better, though I only was able to visit with my mom for 30 minutes before leaving for the "community-wide" Thanksgiving Service at a local Southern Baptist Church. It was pretty sweet to get to see my friends that I graduated with yet again. Benash and Adam were there, two of my closest guy friends throughout my high school career. I really missed those boys a lot, and I didn't realize it too much until seeing them again. I imagine I'll get to see Adam a time or two before leaving for school again, but I'm not so sure about Benji. I invited him to the Bates' Creek gathering this Friday, but I'm not sure he'll be able to cut through his busy schedule with the familia to see me again. Sad story.

Adam and Chad, his friend from Iowa, went to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire with me tonight. This makes my second time seeing it. I must say, that movie is growing on me. At first, I was a bit irked because some things were left unmentioned in the plot. However, I know the information, so I suppose that's all that matters. If anyone else cares to know the "hows" or "whys" behind some of the plot in the movies, I'm sure they'll figure it out on their own, anyways. After all, the HP fans aren't that dull.

This series of JK Rowling's has made England quite the popular place. As many of you back home know, my heart's always been within the depths of England. However, after all this recent fan-fare, I must say that I'm afraid to admire England anymore considering it's quickly becoming a market in itself. British guys are all the fad now, and that's a bit sad. Maybe, when the HP actors/actresses grow up and get hitched, all these fanatics will die out. Then I will be free to love England in peace once more.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm a fan, all the same. But there's a happy medium that should ne'er be crossed. Catch me while I drift?

Maybe I should leave my rantings for a more appropriate time of the day. After all, I need to wake up bright and early today (within several hours) to prepare for the huge Thanksgiving feast that will be held at my home Thursday.

I can't wait until next year! Thanksgiving will be spent in Harlaxton, if all goes as planned. Then, I'll only fly home once Fall of 2006, and that will be to attend my big brother's wedding (considering I'm a bridesmaid and all that jazz)!

Anyway, sweetest of dreams to all of you! God bless.


P.S. Looking back on my past entries serves as a brutal reminder of how sarcastic I've gotten with my writing/attitude lately. I'm not really a jerk, but I guess my opinions have gotten the best of me. Sorry if I've offended any of you off-hand. Peace.
Time for an Update   
07:14pm 27/09/2005
mood: content
So, I decided that I no longer like to use Xanga, and I came back to my "first love" (as far as journals go). This one is much more simplistic and not as stressful. Anyway, that's all I decided to write for the moment because I have homework in Old Testament Survey, Psychology, and College Algebra. Peace out, yo!
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If Only Words Were Spoken   
11:31am 09/03/2005
  Do you ever wonder what could be accomplished if only words were spoken? I've come to think more often on acting upon certain feelings I've gotten rather than sit and contemplate about it all, but that's a story for another time--I fear.

Anyway, I'm at school right now. It's been a while since I've last updated because I've been killer busy with work and what-not. I suppose I'll just say what's been on my mind lately.

I saw some of the college kids again last weekend. It was kinda cool, but I feel that so much has changed. Will I be like them when I leave? I hope not. It's not that I don't like my college kids because God knows I love 'em all. It's just... I don't want to turn into someone who looks upon our church from a distance and swoons. I also don't want to change to where none of my church friends can recognize me when I return. That would be a sad day...

I got somewhat upset that Andrew & Michael are switching to Arnold Baptist, but if God is leading both those boys there, then I know it will all work out for His glory. I just hope that Arnold in fact is where God is leading them. I hope it doesn't lead all the other college kids to give up on our church and go to Arnold too, but only God & time can tell.

I've been really tense with my mom lately, yet again. She grounded me recently from everything except going to school, work, and church. This was all because I didn't clean my room. Then, last night I went to pick up my schedule at work. I talked to my friends there for MAYBE a half an hour, and she decided that I was grounded another 2 weeks on top of that. So, I stayed up until 1 A.M. this morning working on my new room at her house, but I'm considering leaving to stay at my dad's. He's not as power-hungry as my mom is getting. I just wish she'd ease up now that I'm taking back "my responsibilities." I think she's just trying to lay way too much on my plate, in all honesty. She wants me to be the way I used to be, but she won't give me any leverage with which I can mold myself. Ah well. If that ain't the way the cookie crumbles, 'eh?

I've been thinking of Rodney some lately, but not as much. Tommy & Meghan praying for me (and talking to me about why God would NOT want Rodney for me) is kinda helping. I still love Rodney muchly, but I know that God has other things for me at this time. It's hard still because every little thing is reminding me of him, but I'm slowly learning to mask over that desire to be with him in other things.

I saw Lee at the JBA last Friday! I forgot to tell you about that! He was disappointed in me for disobeying my mom and running away to Arkansas to be with Rodney. Coping with his disappointment in me was almost as bad as my own disappointment in myself and God's disappointment with me. However, it was good to pray with him & the others for my drunk brother. It was also pleasant talking to Randy, The Fluffinator, and Keith some more. The friends I'd first come to know and love, however, all left me when I got there. They went to this Kandis girl's house (most of 'em). Luke claimed he was going home to go to bed. I fear that I ruined my friendship with Luke by dating him, which is sad major. I also didn't speak a word to Jeremy, which I guess is fine. Brady, Sister, and Andrew talked to me a little, but that was about it. I'm sure they didn't exactly want to leave me there, but I wasn't about to go to a girl's house I didn't know to be with people who hadn't seen me in forever because that would probably make me feel like more of a foreigner.

But, as Lee said, I am a foreigner so it's good I feel that way. Also, he told me I misplaced my trust in others which is why I failed on the past few months in my life. God is the only one I can trust, which is hardcore true. However, I expect certain things from my life (which is why I've been let down so much lately). I've decided it's time for me to stop expecting things from my life and myself and start living up to God and His plans for me.


P.S. It might be a while before I write again since I can only write in school. I'm grounded from the internet.
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A Tribute to My Meg-Tails!   
11:59am 13/02/2005
mood: dorky
My Maggie has made some quizzes on Quizilla, and I decided to take all of them because I love her! If you haven't checked them ALL out yet, you better go now! If you don't, I'll sick Killer on you (my man-eating duck). That's right--be gone!

You know me very well! I'm glad that you're my
friend because you take the time to know the
specifics. I love you!

How well do you know me?
brought to you by Quizilla

That's right! I know Megan like the back of my hand! How dare I mess up something very important in her life-line (like her getting her finger stuck in an elevator)?...

You have the knowlede of someone who reads the
books for the plot line but doesn't take notice
of the intricate detail that J.K. Rowling
weaves into it. This is the common fan's
knowledge. You have the same brain capacity as
Harry Potter, focusing on the big things
instead of every ity-bity detail.

The ultimate in useless Harry Potter knowledge quiz!
brought to you by Quizilla

Wow, Megs! You hit me right on... That's why I depend on my dearest Maggie to tell me all the stuff I left out while I hurried excitedly through each book as they came out. I need to start rereading them, so I can catch more details in the next one!

You are Seamus Finnigan! Irish, sandy hair; his
father is a Muggle, and his mother didn't tell
his dad that she was a witch until after they
were married, which was a "(b)it of a
nasty shock for him." The Sorting Hat took
almost a whole minute to decide his House.
He's good friends with Dean Thomas. He is a
Gryffindor in Harry's year with a very short

Which Harry Potter character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Seamus, eh? Interesting... I never would have known! ^_^

You are Ashley! You are my best friend ever (if
you actually ARE Ashley)! You are smart and
funny. You're a bit on the cooky side and have
a weakness where boys are concerned. When you
get into something, you really get into it.
You're very passionate, I suppose you could
say. Overall, you're a sweet person.

Which of my friends are you most like?
brought to you by Quizilla

Hoo-rah! I know that I've already taken this one, but I'm very proud to say that I got myself on the very first try! ^_^ Meghan knows me well, I must say. I heart you, my Tin!
ahh! i can't see!   
11:45am 13/02/2005
mood: cheerful
Okay, so I felt my livejournal was in serious need of a makeover. That's right; I did the unthinkable and altered it. Oh my! ^_^

Anyway, I just woke up on Sunday morning, and low & behold, I woke up too late to go to church. It was kinda a bummer because I wanted to go today.

Rodney called me at 4 A.M. this morning because when I called him after leaving work at 11:45 P.M., he was charging his phone and didn't answer. He called, and the first thing he said was, "Were you sleeping?" Duh? O.O

We talked for about a half an hour, and he was preparing to go fishing at that moment with two of his buddies that live by him. They were in the cafe while Mouse went outside to call me. He said it had been raining down there all day and night, which kinda made me worry about him going fishing because not only was it dark, but it was rainy. Besides, he's not supposed to be hunting or fishing right now because he got his license taken away... He's still the stubborn, headstrong Rodney in that aspect! About an hour later, he called me back to tell me his buddies went home and so did he. He said it was too rainy and dark to fish (which is precisely what I had told him to begin with).

Anyway, he's not coming up next weekend because his family (The Keelins) are going down to see him... I don't know if I'm going to go or not. I do know, however, that if I do go I might get fired from my job. There's a mandatory meeting at my work on Saturday next weekend, but if I'm in Arkansas, I can't go. I don't really mind, though. The past two days I've worked at Ronnie's, I've dreaded it and for very good reason. It's just not fun anymore...

I'm considering staying down in Arkansas for a little bit this summer. Stephanie (Rodney's cousin) said she'd go down there with me so it wouldn't be so awkward. I think I might stay with his parents if I do, though. I'd feel weird staying at his place... Either that, or I can stay with my cousin Deanna. She lives about 15 minutes from Rodney. We'll just see what happens, but I'm still not even sure I'm going to.

But, ya know... I have to get off the net now. I'm going to take a shower so I can go hang out with my Meg-Tails. We're supposed to watch X-Men today, and since I don't have work tonight (because I told them I didn't feel well), it's going to be awesome! ^_^ Meg-Tails, if you read this before I come over, know I'm hurrying, and I'm muchly excited! See ya.

ALL the M!LeS that SePaRaTe...   
09:54am 12/02/2005
mood: I'm Worn Out, Dawg!
Hey everyone! I'm getting ready to go to Upwards for a Cheerleading Game. I have been doing quizzes and suchly, but I haven't written much yet. I'm sorry about that. Maybe sometime soon I'll get the chance...

I have to work again today from 2-10 P.M. Last night at work was dumb because my manager yelled at me for not trying to make people buy more expensive stuff from us. So sue me for trying to help them get the best value! Stupid dumbheads...

I miss Rodney quite a bit. I got to talk to him lots last night, and he's trying to figure out what's best for him to do when I go off to college in Hannibal. He currently lives in Arkansas, but he wants to move up here this coming year so he can be closer. He did, however, say he was considering doing something else, but I have no idea what that's supposed to mean. Anyway, I'll update you more later again... I have to go pick up my delightful Meg-Tails so we can get some cheer goin' up in her'.

I'll write more after work, probably.

-Yours truly
E-Mail Gone Survey-ish   
09:23am 12/02/2005
mood: complacent
1. First name: Ashley
2. Were you named after anybody? I was named after everyone who was born before July 8, 1986 at *insert time here*. Everyone born after July 8, 1986 at *insert time here* was named after me.
3. Do you wish on stars? Sometimes I look up at the stars and wonder about who's doing the very same thing at that time, but I don't wish on them really.
4. When did you last cry? Last night.
5. Do like your handwriting? It's easy to read, so sure.
6. What is your favorite meat? Chicken.
7. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Psshft. Depends if I clashed with my own personality or not.
8. Are you a daredevil? Not really. I like to know the jest of what's going to happen to me... When I'm feeling goofy, sometimes.
9. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? If it needed to be told.
10. Do looks matter? Sometimes.
11. How do you release anger? I keep myself busy and ignore it.

12. Where is your second home? My dad's, The McCarthy's Home, and The Keelin's Home.
13. Do you trust others easily? Nope.
14. What was your favorite toy as a child? I see a lot of pictures of me with this doll with a giant face on it, so I'm guessing it's a toss up between that and My Little Ponies.
15. What class in high school do you think was totally useless? Probably Pop Culture (but I sure do love it)!
16. Do you have a journal? A few, actually.
17. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Usually I only use it when I don't want to let someone know how I really feel.
18. Favorite movies? Finding Neverland, Save the Last Dance, Sweet Home Alabama, Brother Bear, and just about every single movie Megs and I see together!
19 What are your nicknames? Depends on who you're asking.
20. Would you bungee jump? I already have, but I'd do it again, sure.
21. Do you untie your shoes before you take them off? Depends if I have time. Usually, no.
22. Do you think that you are strong? Nope.
23. Favorite ice cream? Cookie Dough.
24. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? That I can't make everyone happy. It gets annoying that I always fall short in just about every area of my life, sometimes...
25. Who do you miss most? Many. I miss my college kids, but I don't think I'd be comfortable around them anymore... I miss Rodney, but I think he's coming up next weekend. I miss Jamie, too.
26. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back? I'm not sending it.
27. What color pants are you wearing? My work pants (black).
28. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Cerulean.
29. What is the weather like right now? I'm not sure. I know it's sunny, but I won't step outside until Upwards.
30. Last person you talked to on the phone? Rodney "Mouse".
31. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? How they act while they're alone and in a group.
32. Do you like the person that sent this to you? Yup. Hey Chelle!
34. Favorite drink? Smoothies from the gas station & slushie things from MotoMart.
35. Favorite sport? To watch: Basketball & Baseball. To play: Softball and Volleyball.
36. Haircolor? Blonde.
37. Eye color? I think it's Green, but my mom says it's blue.
38. Do you wear contacts? To help me see, sure.
39. Favorite food? This is such a random quizzle... Um, I dunno. I have always been one for fastfood because I'm impatient most of the time.
40. Favorite pet? I can't choose a favorite! That's like asking a mother to choose which child out of 4 children she would rather die for!!! Sicko...
41. Favorite day of the year? Probably Easter because it always makes me feel better. I love snow days, too.
42. Scary movies or happy endings? Depends on which is more realistic? Heh...
44. Hugs or kisses? Depends from whom.
45. What is your favorite dessert? Chocolate fudge on a warm brownie with ice cream on top or watermelons (do they count)?...
46. Who is most likely to respond? No one 'cuz I'm not sending it.
47. Who is least likely to respond? Repeat answer to last question...
48. Living arrangements? Currently at home. Next year, probably at Hannibal... After that, we'll see what the future brings. -.~
49. What's on your mouse pad? It says "Belkin" on the top in a circle, and it's black with a wrist rest thingie (but those are actually NOT good for your wrist at all)...
50. What did you watch last night on TV? I didn't because I had to work.
51. Favorite smell? The air outside when it's about to rain a lot or snow a lot.
52. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Neither.
53. Do you believe in Evolution or Creation? I know my God created, but it's very likely you can try to make my answer "evolve" into something else and say that it was not God who started it... ^_^ Catch my drift?
54. What's the furthest you've been from home? I suppose Florida is farther than Washington D.C.? Or is it NM? Not so sure anymore.
55. Do you have a cell phone? Yup. It comes fully equipped with an excessively high phone bill (thanks to my sucky plan).

Okay, I know you all love me, but that's the last question on the quizlet. So sorry. If you want to know more, your best bet is to call me or something. If you don't have my number, tough luck? Peace.

A Quizzle From Megs   
10:06pm 10/02/2005
mood: bouncy
[x] Name: Ashley Marie
[x] What does it mean: Ashley (derived from the Ash Tree Meadows or something...) and Marie (a form of Mary)
[x] Nickname: Katherine, Doodlebug, Tin, Sister, Sunny, Ash, Honey Bear (H.B.), etcetera...
[x] How did you get your nickname: I can't even try to explain all of it.
[x] Homo/Bi/Straight: Straight
[x] Single/Taken: Taken
[x] Age/DOB: 18 - 7/8/86
[x] Location: Missouri
[x] Sign: Cancer

[x] Eye Color: Blue/Green
[x] Make-up: Usually.
[x] Hair color: Blonde
[x] Long or short: Shortish
[x] Height: 5'4"
[x] Tattoos: Rub-ons are nice sometimes.
[x] Piercings: I have three (one in each ear and then one in the cartilage of one ear)
[x] Nationality: American

[x] Shampoo: Herbal Essence
[x] Conditioner: Herbal Essence
[x] Body wash: This stuff my mum buys from her friend.
[x] Lotion: I don't remember
[x] Animal: Bootsie, Precious, Meg-Tails, Sweetheart, (Sometimes Princess)
[x] Fast food: Taco Bell
[x] Restaurant: St. Louis Bread Co.
[x] Fruit: Watermelon
[x] Vegetable: Corn
[x] Soda: Sprite or Dr. Pepper
[x] Alcoholic drink: Nope
[x] Cigarette: Huh uh
[x] Drug: Nadda
[x] TV show: Gilmore Girls
[x] Cartoon: Recess
[x] Band: Jeremy Camp
[x] Song: "I Surrender"

[x] Thought: Rodney's as indecisive as me... (I'm on the phone with him)
[x] Music: "Your My Best Friend" by Tim McGraw
[x] Food: I just ate rice.
[x] Drink: Water
[x] Clothing: Element Hoodie, blue jeans, socks
[x] Hairstyle: Half-Up in a scrunchie
[x] Mood: Awake?
[x] Shoes: Socks

[[------HAVE YOU EVER------]]
[x] Done drugs: When I was three, my mum let me try a cig, but I got sickly.
[x] Drank alcohol: Once at my sister's for New Year's.
[x] Had sex: Nope.
[x] Stripped: Nope.
[x] Skinny dipped: Nope.
[x] Fist fought: Punched a few people.
[x] Broke a bone: Nope.

[[------WHAT MAKES YOU------]]
[x] Happy: Hanging out with my pals, listening to Christian music or going to concerts
[x] Angry: People who are mean, People who get too close to my car on the road... People who are retarded or flirt with people who have significant others.
[x] Depressed: Not knowing where I'm supposed to belong, when I upset Maggie I get sad...
[x] Nervous: When I step into Martha Carrier's room... *dun dun dun*
[x] Scared: Of upsetting my loved ones

[[------WHO IS THE------]]
[x] Hottest guy: Rodney (Mouse) ^_^
[x] Loudest: Jamie or Krista
[x] Quietest: Lindsey & Cassie
[x] Talented: Meghan
[x] Motherly: Stephanie
[x] Jerk: Steven Derkos
[x] Funniest: Meghan makes me giggle.
[x] Annoying: Mark (sometimes), Adam (sometimes)

[x] When was the first time you ever smoked pot: Never
[x] The last time you Smoked: When I was three and got sick.
[x] First time you ever drank alcohol: New Year's at my sister's (it was more of a sip, and I hated it)

[x] Do you have a crush: Yuppers
[x] What‘s their name: Rodney (Mouse)
[x] Do you have a boyfriend: Yup
[x] What‘s their name: Rodney
[x] Do you have a girlfriend: No
[x] What‘s their name: N/A
[x] What age did you lose your virginity at: Didn't.
[x] Do you regret it: Nope, 'cuz I didn't.
[x] Ever kiss someone in your family?: Yup (family kisses)
[x] How about a cousin?: Meghan wrote something mean about Arkansas people! O.O!

J o k i n g.

[x] Have you ever thought about being Homosexual or Bisexual: No
[x] If you are a female: If you got pregnant and didn‘t want the child, would you abort it: That's a sin. Jeremiah 1 (and the Ten Commandments)

[x] Abortion: Murder
[x] George Bush: Better than Kerry
[x] Religion: Christian
[x] Pre-marital sex: Sinful
[x] Drugs: Kill (TRUTH)
[x] War: Sad

[x] Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
[x] Kiss or Hug: Hug
[x] Decaf coffee or Regular: Not sure?
[x] Deaf or blind: Oh... that's hard... Blind.
[x] If you were condemned to death, would you rather burn or freeze to death: I'd rather Jesus save me.

[x] Who is your best friend: Meg-Tails
[x] How old are they: 16
[x] How long have you known them: A couple years (but we became friends last summer)... (I took Meg-Tail's Answer... SHHHHH!)
[x] Where did you meet: Church
[x] Exactly how did you meet [[Give details]]: On the Mission Trip to New Mexico. She sat next to the window on my left and slept the ENTIRE TIME while I talked to Tiffany (who was on my other side).
[x] Best memory: I would have to say my all-time favorites... Gosh, it's hard! I loved sitting on her porch in the cold with blankets around us and talking (and singing to God)... I loved being "British Foreign Exchange Students"... so many more!
[x] What were your thoughts when you first met them: I felt that she was way younger than me.
[x] Have your thoughts changed since then: Definitely, but I still treat her like she's my younger sister (because she's NOT EVER allowed to date... Boys are mean & only fun to look at)
[x] have they changed your life at all: Oh yes. She makes me want to be a better person.
[x] Have you done anything that you regret: I've been snappy with her, and it upsets me when I know I've hurt her.
[x] What do you regret: LOL! Trolley!
[x] Is there anything you‘d like to tell them now: I heart you, Meg-Tails.

[x] Father‘s name: Jerry (Step-Dad: Ben)
[x] What did/does he do for a living: Carpentry (Dispatch Driver)
[x] Mother‘s name: Christine (Step-Mom: Rita)
[x] What did/does she do for a living: Dispatcher (Stay at home mom)
[x] Any sisters: Yes
[x] Their names: Tammy (Tot) and Angie
[x] Their ages: 30s
[x] Any brothers: Yuppers
[x] Their names: Ryan, Jeremy, Little Ben (Elbow), and one I don't know
[x] Their ages: it varies
[x] Who do you live with: My mom and step-dad
[x] Do you get along with your parents: Usually
[x] Do you get along with your siblings: Sometimes

[x] What is your favorite quote:

"The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him for he is your lord."
-Psalm 45:11
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Snatching from Maggie   
09:52pm 10/02/2005

You Are A Romantic

You are more romantic than 90% of the population.

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

You Belong in 1958


If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

You are Ashley! You are my best friend ever (if
you actually ARE Ashley)! You are smart and
funny. You're a bit on the cooky side and have
a weakness where boys are concerned. When you
get into something, you really get into it.
You're very passionate, I suppose you could
say. Overall, you're a sweet person.

Which of my friends are you most like?
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It's Been Forever...   
09:44pm 10/02/2005
mood: dorky
Yeah, so I haven't written in a million years. Maggie's been getting on to me about it, and I suppose it was due time for me to write.

How are all of you? Good I hope... I've had quite a busy life lately, and I have no clue how to fill you in on everything. I'll try, though.

I got my class ring back from Billy Michael last night. That was kinda awkward because I tried to thank him, and he didn't say a word. He looked really mad, and when he left my house, he burned out. My mom was rather worried about him 'cuz she heard him peel out. I asked if she thought I should call him, and she told me to just let it be. I felt really bad, but I didn't know what else I could've done.

I'm dating Rodney again (aka: Mouse). I dated him a long time ago (in 6th grade). The reason we broke up was because he lives in Arkansas. How did I meet him, you may wonder? He's my friend's cousin. Anyway, he came up last weekend, and we both still like each other. So, we're going out now, and we're going to try and make it work out. He's planning on moving up here the end of this summer so he's not so far away when I go to college in Hannibal. We'll see, though.

Anyway, I'll catch you up more later. I'm currently on the phone with Rodney and closing up my homework. Peace.

My Favourite Avril Song   
08:50pm 01/12/2004
mood: Heh. Sure?
Of course, I can definitely relate to all of the songs on Avril's CD, so you're probably going to end up seeing them posted on here eventually... However, I just wanna post this one right now. There are 12 songs on it, so this means our standings are currently 2 out of 12 (or 1/6 from the whole cd, for you math whizzes). ^_^ Here ya go.

Under My Skin - Avril Lavigne
1. Take Me Away
2. Together
3. Don't Tell Me
4. He Wasn't
5. How Does It Feel
6. My Happy Ending
7. Nobody's Home
8. Forgotten
9. Who Knows
10. Fall to Pieces
11. Freak Out
12. Slipped Away


"Together" - Avril

Something just isn't right,
I can feel it inside.
The truth isn't far behind me -
You can't deny.
When I turn the lights out,
When I close my eyes,
Reality overcomes me;
I'm living a lie...

When I'm alone,
I feel so much better.
And when I'm around you,
I don't feel...

It doesn't feel right at all.
Together we've built a wall.
holding hands we'll fall.
Hands we'll fall...

This has gone on so long.
I realize that I need...
Something good to rely on,
Something for me.

When I'm alone,
I feel so much better.
And when I'm around you,
I don't feel...

It doesn't feel right at all.
Together we've built a wall.
holding hands we'll fall.
Hands we'll fall...

My heart is broken.
I'm lying here.
My thoughts are choking...
On you, my dear.
On you, my dear.
On you, my dear.

When I'm alone,
I feel so much better.
And when I'm around you,
I don't feel...

(Chorus 2x)

When I'm around you...
When I'm around you...
I don't feel together.
I don't feel together. (2x)


Whoops... I guess I am getting to where I'm starting to chill by myself a lot more than I used to. My family is probably beginning to wonder. Oh well. -shruggles-
School's Out?   
08:29pm 01/12/2004
mood: drained
I didn't go to school today... I woke up feeling somewhat bad, but I was planning on going to school yet. However, when I went outside to start up my car and warm it up, my doors were frozen shut! I tried to fit my key in both doors, but it would go in! I kicked and pulled, but nothing. Ah well... God must've wanted me home today? Too bad my mum didn't like that idea. I had to clean and do laundry. Then, I fell asleep and started to feel worse when I woke up. It was no good.

I bought the new Avril cd last weekend when I went shopping with Amanda. There's a song on it that reminds me of Luke called "Who Knows." It made me... think. Thinking's an odd thing. I'm going to post it because I'm listening to it right now, and I wanna. =P

"Who Knows" by Avril

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah - Yeah, Yeah - Yeah

Why do you look so familiar?
I could swear that I have seen your face before.
I think I like that you seem sincere.
I think I'd like to get to know you a little bit more.

I think there's something more...
Life's worth living for.

Who knows what could happen?
Do what you do,
Just keep on laughing.
One thing's true,
There's always a brand new day.

I'm gonna live today like it's my last day

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah - Yeah, Yeah - Yeah

How do you always have an opinion?
And how do you always find the best way to compromise?
We don't need to have a reason.
We don't anything, we're just wasting time.

I think there's something more...
Life's worth living for.

Who knows what could happen?
Do what you do,
Just keep on laughing.
One thing's true,
There's always a brand new day. (2x)

I'm gonna live today like it's my last day

Find yourself
'Cause I can't find you.
Be yourself;
Who are you? (2x)

Who knows what could happen?
Do what you do,
Just keep on laughing.
One thing's true,
There's always a brand new day.

So you go make it happen
do your best
just keep on laughing
I'm telling you
there's always a brand new day

Who knows what could happen?
Do what you do,
Just keep on laughing.
One thing's true,
There's always a brand new day.

I'm gonna live today like it's my last day...


Two words for you now: don't ask.
Turkey for me... Turkey for you...   
12:42am 26/11/2004
mood: Yum Yum Yum, Slim Jim!
Happy Thanksgiving! It was a rather silly day, really. I woke up, and P.J. called me from the Army. He's in a base in North/South Carolina (I forget which). That's crazy far... Anyway, after speaking to him, I decided that I think it's really neato he signed up for the Army. Even though he's doing it primarily for free college, I think his heart goes further than that.

I cleaned after that and prepared all the entertainment for my neices and nephews. Then, we had lots of company over. It would be hard to sum up all the events, so let's just say it went fantastically. My dad dropped by the house and gave me $150. I was really happy, to say the least. I need to buy my friends Christmas Presents, and that should definitely cover it. Mum said I should save it for college, and she's probably right. However, my friends are far more important to me.

I slept a long time after eating because my lower back was really killing me. I don't know why, but it's been hurting me a lot more lately. I was going to tell my dad about it, but I knew he'd worry far too much.

Anyway, it was an overall good day. Time to sleep because I'm going shopping with Amanda tomorrow (to get rid of her Eli blues), and then we're going to Carol's. Meghan, you should call me so we can figure out the plans. I'll try to get home asap after shopping.

-Yours, Ash
Swiped A Survey   
04:00pm 24/11/2004
mood: Surveyish.
I snatched this survey from my Sister's livejournal (Ladybug4thelord). Check her out sometime. Wait, don't do that! If you check her out sometime, I'll be forced to hurt you.

Anyways, here is the survey. Don't really go through all of it. That's dumb.


Seven things in your room:
1) Bed
2) Television
3) Radio
4) 2 guitars
5) Christmas Tree
6) Bookshelf
7) Desk

Top seven movies: (no order - "So I cheated. So sue me!")
* Sergeant York
* Kate & Leopold
* The Ten Things I Hate About You
* The Santa Claus
* Brother Bear
* HP & LOTR (all of them)
* Atlantis

Top seven things you say most:
1) Jesus (or something about Him)
2) Run away!
3) Um...
4) That's silly/dumb.
5) Grr.
6) Ish.
7) Right...

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
* The Jesus in him connecting with the Jesus in me (-giggles- Someone referred to it this way, and it stuck with me since.)
* A desire to grow closer to the Lord.
* Pretty Eyes.
* He has to have bigger hands than me. (If he didn't, that would be weird because I have tiny hands...)
* He can't be critical of others (especially my friends).
* A loving personality.
* Good sense of humor.

Smoke?: Nope.
Do drugs?: D.A.R.E. (In case you didn't know, that's a no. ^_^)
Read the newspaper?: In Mr. B's class.
Pray?: I don't know what I'd do without prayer. Yes.

Been in love?: I love everyone. Hooray. (Okay, so I'm kidding.)

Gotten beaten up?: It never lasts that long. I'm a tough little booger. ^_^ (TeeHee. So maybe not THAT tuff...)

Beaten someone up?: Of course... not. Well, there was this little boy in kindgergartern... I kinda bloodied his nose for trying to kiss me. But that doesn't count!

Been on stage?: Mhmm.

Slept outdoors?: It's my favorite place TO sleep.

Pulled an all nighter?: Nearly every night.

If yes, what is your record?: Nearly every night?

Made out with a stranger?: Nope.

Been on radio/tv?: I don't think so. At least, I hope not.

Been in a mosh-pit?: Fake ones.

Do you have any gay/lesbian/bi friends?: None that I know of, but I've had acquaintances who claimed to be that way.

First kiss?: Sure.

Heritage: I have lots of that. I believe all that my mum has found so far includes -- German, a little Irish, English, Native American (my grandma's side), and only God knows what else. It's craziness, I tell you. I'm a nothing.

Shoes you wore today: My Chucks

Fear: One of my friends dying without knowing Jesus.

Perfect pizza: Hawaiian or just Sausage

Pepsi or coke?: Not sure. Neither.

Chocolate or vanilla?: Vanilla.

Internet or phone?: Internet. I don't like to talk on the phone all the time because I have a hard time focusing.

Suicidal?: Nope.

Stubborn?: Yup.

Open-minded?: Depending on whether or not I'm stubborn at that given time.

Arrogant?: I pretend to be sometimes so people leave me alone. It never works though because everyone knows better. >.<"

Patient?: Hardly. If I think of things being done in God's time, then yes.

Hyper?: Sometimes. It depends on who I'm with.

Nice?: Sometimes. School dampens the niceness a bit.

Happy?: Usually.

Depressed?: Been there, yup.

Shave your head for $1000?: Now, what would I do with all that money? <(^_^)>

Like candles?: Yup. (You can't have candles in dorms, Sister? That's sad!)

Believe in soul mates?: Sure. God has someone that's right for everyone He has planned on allowing to marry.

Believe in love at first sight?: No. Then what would happen for those people who are blind? Maybe love upon first hearing?...

Believe in forgiveness?: Of course. Jesus is the definition of forgiveness.

Want to get married?: It would be pleasant sometime in the future.

Want to have kids?: If God allows, sure.

Ever want to adopt kids?: Why not?

[three words that sum you up]: Jesus & Ashley (Sorry, I don't know what else there is...)

[jewelry worn daily]: It varies depending on what reminders I think I'll be needing that day. I always wear my True Love Waits ring as a promise ring from/to God. ^_^

[wallet]: It's composed of all of my credit card like stuff and monies binded together with a rubber band. I make exceptions for that which I lack. ;)

[coffee]: Good on occassion. Too much makes me never sleep, though.

[shoes]: Are good when it's cold, wet, icy, sharp oject-like, or burning hot pavement.

[cologne/perfume]: Cool Water.

[clothing you have on]: Northwest Blast 2 The Past T-Shirt (from Renaissance this year), blue jeans, & chucks

[cried]: Nope.

[bought something]: Nope.

[gotten sick]: Yup (a cold).

[sang]: Yup.

[eaten]: Yup.

[been kissed]: Nope. Not in a long time.

[felt stupid]: Always.

[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: Sure.

[talked to an ex]: Nope.

[talked to someone you have a crush on]: Nope.

[had a serious talk]: Yup.

[missed someone]: Yup.

[hugged someone]: Yup - Bob & Megs.

[argued with a parent(s)]: Nope.

[best girl friend]: Megs, Amanda, Cassie (sometimes Krista & Jamie)

[best guy friend]: Adam, Ben Ash, Luke, Tommy Miller, Tommy Self (I miss hanging out with Jeff...)

[boyfriend/girlfriend]: Nope.

[hobbies]: Reading, Writing, Singing, Learning (especially the guitar), being with my family (which is rare), hanging out and watching movies with my friends (especially Meghan & her family/my second family).

[car you drive]: Red Monte Carlo

[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: With friends. I don't like dating because I feel uncomfortable.

[job]: I think I got hired at the movie theater, but I wasn't home to receive the call.

[attend church]: Yup.

[like being around people]: Sometimes.

Seven things to do before death:
* Scream: "Freedom!" (Nope, jsut playing!)
* Lead millions of people to Christ.
* Visit Jerusalem.
* Meet people from England. ^_^
* Tell everyone I love them and where I'm going after I leave them.
* Name a star.
* Give away all of my stuff.
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Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow!   
03:48pm 24/11/2004
mood: Yay For Snow!
It snowed for the first time today this holiday season (which is killer exciting)! I love the snow so muchly. God spoils me with all this glorious snow. The snowflakes this morning were the biggest, fluffiest snowflakes I had ever seen! I just hope that all of my college friends are back home before it gets any worse (if it does). I'm considering going to either Latte Da or Solid Rock this weekend.

I think Amanda wishes to go with me because she's having a really rough time lately without Eli. I completely understand her hurt, and I'm glad God's given me the opportunity to love on her right now at such a hard time in her life. At least they're both being honest with each other and not continuing down a path that God does not have for them. I'm going to share with Amanda the CD with Matt Chandler on it that Eric gave to me before he left for college in the fall. He preaches this one sermon on dating and the meaning behind it. It really opens up your mind to whether or not you are ready to be dating at all.

I got home earlier from Meg's house. It was fun stuff. We watched part of The Santa Claus 2 and all of White Christmas, and then we went to bed. When we woke up this morning, Bob made us some yummy pancakes. Then, I read some of Meghan's book to her while she typed on the computer. It was an overall laid back, yet exciting, visit. Unfortunately, I had to come home and clean at noonish. I made the best time I could out of it, though, by taking that opportunity to set up my Christmas Tree and decorations in my room. I love the holidays! The downfall: I didn't start ANY of my laundry that my mum had hoped I would finish. Whoops? I'll do that after Lauren's party tonight (if I have time). See ya.

A Few More Quizzles...   
02:22pm 20/11/2004
mood: chipper

when harry met sally
When Harry Met Sally:
It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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You&apos;re a very warm person who wants to be loved for who you are. Love means the world to you but you want it to be right. You have a vision of perfection when it comes to true love.

What does love mean to you?
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12:36am 20/11/2004
mood: enthralled
"The Courtyard"
By: Watashi Wa

Tell me friend, do they linger in your head?
Can you taste it still like yesterdays?
Those memories, because they wash all over me,
they make wisdom cry out for all she’s seen.
All we want we’ll come to see,
all we see will make us be.
So leave it up to me I know you’re hungry
baby you can’t see.
Leave it up to me
just close your eyes we’ll get there.

Tell me friend do they linger in your heart
can you taste them for they were yesterday those promises
do you believe only what you see?
Still wisdom cries out for all she’s seen.

All we want we’ll come to see,
all we see will make us be.
So leave it up to me, I know you’re hungry
baby you can’t see.
Leave it up to me
Just close your eyes we’ll get there.
She cries the sound that you want to hear.
She’ll be there when it’s over.
The gates and the door she stands over.
Stay there dear. Chose to hear. Leave it up to me.